I was gonna write about the awesome CD Joanie's dad sent me, but I felt this was more important:
[link]
lulz

Well Fuck...
I had an entire letter written up about an annoying trend I've been seeing in video games lately. Then DA apparently ATE it...
I've been nothing but a downer as of recent and can't even think about where to begin. I felt a little better and a bit amused with my letter
Then this shit comes down.
Fuck... I give up I'll be back in March - when this all finally lifts.
- Out

Hello internet, how are you?
I feel like I've been on one of the worst roller coaster rides in my life - Sick and dizzy. No drugs or fast -moving carts on a track necessary.the past few months have been getting more and more difficult for me. The worst part is that it's not just any one specific thing. The problem with that is that it's making me more irritable in a general sense and that's only helping to stress out the people around me that I care about. It's hard to explain since some of the details vary depending on who you talk to, but a lot of it deals with a world that's outside of my ability to control it. Whether it's me missing the one I love - 200 miles away; Watching some of the relationships between other friends crumble; My mother's dangerous situation at work; My website was destroyed and is unrecoverable; or just the fact that this particular season change can sometimes heavily bring me down - I can't really say. Since it's more than likely a combination of all that and more it get fairly frustrating... I'm sure most of you who know me tend to see the "happier side" of me and especially since I seemed to be OK last year around this time. I kinda was - but not fully - I've gotten good at either ignoring or hiding the random depression thing. But it helped that last year thing were still new and I had enough interaction to distract myself. Right now it just feels like the shit is overtaking the distraction and that puts me in a pretty bad position. The worst part is that so many other people are going through rough shit at the moment I feel like I have no outlet or no-one to talk to. I know a lot of friends have told me I can always talk to them and stuff - but most of them are dealing with their own version of this that I can't bring myself to bother them with my plate of steaming fresh "crazy" on top of it. That's actually the only reason I'm writing this entry - no to cry about my life in particular or get sympathy, etc - it's kinda just an outlet. I stopped doing depressed entries like this quite some time ago because there was never a good reaction to them and people tended to only notice the "bad" entries. Either way - all I can really do is stick with what I have - It's gotta get better eventually - right?
I found a really good blog post on a blog I read that is normally a comedy blog - this entry is one of the few serious entries but there's a lot I can relate to and understand in it. I wanted to share it with everyone because I KNOW I'm not the only one out there feeling this crazy. I suggest most of you guys give the entry a read - but ALSO read her other stuff, cuz it's funny as HELL!
About depression and mental instability - [link]
A good starting place for her funny stuff (Which is almost everything on the blog! - [link]
Here's to things getting better,
-=Justin=-

Haven't updated in a while.
<s>Shit sucks - going slowly insane.</s>
Things is better
Website galleries have been updated with anything I've been to recently...
GothBeach 2009
CTcon 2009
I'll proper update eventually

Have you ever woken up mad at someone because of what just happened in the dream you woke up from? Why is this feeling so hard to shake - it's not like this happened IRL, right (obviously it didn't...)?
>_<
anyway, on to that quiz thing all the hip kids are doing these days

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[x] - You like cheese.
[ ] - You hate peanuts.
[x] - You agree that this quiz is random.
[x] - You have choked on something.
[ ] - You are a writer.
[ ] - You smoke.
[x] - You like to swim.
[x] - You like ice cream.

TOTAL SO FAR = 5

[x] - You have lied more than 10 times.
[ ] - You are an only child.
[ ] - You have more than 3 pets.
[x] - You prefer water to other drinks.
[ ] - You are an alcoholic.
[ ] - You are under 20 years old.
[ ] - You are over 30 years old.
[x] - You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] - You like jewelry.
[x] - Your favorite music genre is rock.

TOTAL SO FAR = 9

[x] - You weigh more than 140 lbs.
[x] - You like pirates.
[x] - You like anime.
[x] - You are a fangirl/fanboy of something.
[ ] - You take a prescription drug every day.
[x] - You have a job.
[ ] - You live with your parents.
[ ] - You like to eat eggs.
[x] - You have a religion.
[ ] - You dress stranger than other people.

TOTAL SO FAR = 15

[x] - You have had diarrhea in the past 2 weeks.
[x] - You have eaten something odd before.
[ ] - You are bad at math.
[x] - You love electronics.
[x] - Someone/something has pissed you off in the past week.
[x] - You cuss a lot.
[x] - You believe in aliens.
[x] - You play video games.
[x] - You have low self-esteem.
[ ] - You carry a purse

TOTAL SO FAR = 23

[x] - You like flowers.
[ ] - You are bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] - You are a Capricorn or a Scorpio.
[x] - You have used tarot before.
[x] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You think *The-Fun-Group is awesome.
[ ] - You like =Fotus9's horoscopes better than *An-Unsure-Thing's...
[ ] - You thought today's funny saying was really funny.
[ ] - You have gotten one of the daily riddle's right.
[x] - You have gotten in/came close to being in a fist fight.

TOTAL SO FAR = 27

[x] - You like fire.
[ ] - You have fainted or passed out before.
[x] - You have a high school diploma.
[x] - You live in America.
[x] - You use hand sanitizer a lot.
[x] - You consider yourself a nerd.
[ ] - You have tried chewing tobacco.
[x] - You are a conspiracy theorist.
[ ] - You sleep in the nude.

TOTAL SO FAR = 32

[x] - You have imagined yourself being famous.
[x] - You own a stuffed animal.
[x] - You like watermelon.
[ ] - You live in Europe.
[x] - You have a fetish for something.
[x] - You fidget a lot.
[x] - You agree that this quiz has nothing to do with anything.
[ ] - You won't re-post this quiz.
[x] - You have your own personal computer and don't share one.
[x] - You have a brother.


TOTAL SO FAR = 40

[x] - You can cook well.
[x] - You like to party.
[x] - You are a bad dancer.
[ ] - You are a professional dancer.
[x] - You have crossed paths with a black cat.
[x] - You have a friend that you think is crazy.
[x] - You have under 10 good, close friends.
[x] - You are anticipating your answer to this quiz.
[x] - You have ran away from something.
[x] - You have watched the movie: "X Men 3".

TOTAL SO FAR = 49

[x] - You like to mix soft drinks together.
[x] - You have done an odd experiment.
[x] - People have stared at you oddly in public
[x] - Your grandmother(s) are still alive.
[x] - You have a step-mom or dad.
[ ] - You hate to be tagged.
[ ] - You have been a member to dA for under 3 months.
[ ] - You have a dA subscription.
[x] - Your hair is brown.
[x] - You love to eat candy.

TOTAL SO FAR = 56

[x] - You have dressed up for Halloween.
[x] - You love cats.
[x] - You have a quirky personality.
[ ] - You are a coffee addict.
[x] - You live near a body of water.
[x] - You have had a toothache.
[ ] - You currently have to go to the bathroom.
[x] - You like reading others' answers to "What would you do?".
[ ] - You are a vegetarian/vegan.
[x] - You use the term: "Epic Fail".

GRAND TOTAL = 63

0-25 = A spaceship.
26 = Corn.
27 = The Chosen One.
28 = A donkey.
29 = Flashlight.
30 = Weed.
31 = Stalker.
32 = Poodle.
33 = A turd.
34 = Pacifier.
35 = Chili.
36 = A continent.
37 = Bamboo.
38 = A Nissan Skyline.
39 = Pedophile.
40 = A rather large and smelly fish.
41 = Parachute.
42 = Mob of angry sheep.
43 = A clone of yourself.
44 = A mortified chocolate deer antler.
45 = Pincushion.
46 = Toilet seat.
47 = Ninja.
48 = Psycho passion fruit.
49 = Yellow snow.
50 = Flammable.
51 = A poison Easter basket.
52 = A dirty diaper.
53 = Mammary gland.
54 = A moose humping a guardrail.
55 = An illegal immigrant.
56 = Tofu.
57 = Microscopic testicle fuzz.
58 = Staple gun.
59 = Tail feather.
60 = A white rapper.
61 = A shotgun shell.
62 = Sexy as hell.
63 = A popcorn fart.
64 = A rusty, herpes infected needle.
65 = Fortune cookie.
66 = Barack Obama.
67 = Chinchilla.
68 = Weapon of mass destruction.
69 = An epic failure at everything.
70 = Sweat.
71 = Naughty nymphomaniac.
72 = Bicycle tire.
73 = A semi-proportionate and anonymous fish scale.
74 = The Bubonic Plague.
75 = Turkey.
76 = Amoeba.
77 = A lice-infected hobo.
78 = The ruler of all evil.
79 = Horny toad.
80 = Fairy Godmother.
81 = Tuba.
82 = Anorexic llama capillary.
83 = Moldy snot.
84 = Miley Cyrus wannabe.
85 = Doppelganger.
86 = Future porn star.
87 = Unnatural disaster.
88 = Statistical database.
89 = Genital lice.
90 = Rocket launcher.
91 = Ruby vomit.
92 = Maggot.
93 = Selfish antagonistic poofing cat.
94 = Pudding.
95 = A gravy train.
96 = Santa Claus.
97 = Paris Hilton's big toe.
98 = Decaying insect corpse.
99 = Blood bank.
100 = Freak of nature and humanity